Saturday SlobberLove

Sometimes on Saturday we think for one minute that even though we like listening to Prairie Home Companion for up to three times over the weekend and even though we feel like we are so full up with sadness and grief and wistful worrying that we should just go crawl into a cave like that little revolting guy from Lord of the Rings and even though we have logged so many hours in therapy that we wish for there to be an Hours Logged In Therapy Olympics just so we can win a gold medal and even though we secretly long for things to have been different with our meanie of a mother and we fear we will still be thinking this when we are a 90 year old and even though we think we are stronger than anyone knows and this is our secret and even though we have a hard time so much of the time and even though we wish we could listen to the soundtrack from Gigi and have a singalong with our neighbors and even though strangers who smile at us scare us and even though as we fall asleep sometimes we wonder if this is what it's like to fall away into death and we think we are too morose for the general public and even though we think we should be arrested or at the very least fined for how long our sentences are and even though the thoughts we tell ourselves are just so unreasonably cruel to ourselves---we still forgive our own scraggly, confused behavior because we truly feel that we try SO HARD and in our deepest heart we know this is all that matters.

Yours In Thought Exhaustion,
Angsty Angsterson